"Noam moaned," moaned Noam.

Friday, June 02, 2006

...everybody knows it hurts...

Dear world,

Today I cried about graduation for the first time. And the second time, and the third time.

Wednesday I put my handprint on Uni's wall, and it put its handprint on my heart! I think it was a fair exchange. Then we went to Espresso and read stuff and talked about brutal honesty, which is the best thing ever, and mushiness, which is good sometimes too. Then we got back and they had watched the subbie videos, lame! I wanted to see Sergei's hair, I heard it rocked.

Thursday I wrote my name and alterego,
and "LOVE" on my hand. Then pool, laughter, yearbooks. cucumbers too!

I think it's especially weird because it's over but we don't want it to be and we keep getting closer and closer, but in the end it just that, end. And there's nothing we can do about it. It's depressing but we will lose touch and we will forget people that we only got to talk to the last few weeks of school. And we know it...

I actually think awkwardness is good. I mean, it sucks for most people involved, but it lets us be raw and real about the situation. Cuz you sort of avoid topics like "these people broke up", they're secrets, and you can't mention them. But they did, and everyone knows it, so we might as well shout out "AWKWARD" to the world. It opens things up. We might as well open up, we have a day left with eachother, we have nothing to lose. I didn't participate in the silly games! But I probably should've, we'll just have to have another party where I can be stereotypical.

The moonlight was so pretty I hope everyone saw it when we were wrestling. That was a really cool activity actually. Probably just cuz I love violence :P.

Went to Brett's party. I think the best part was the driving actually. Going there, reflecting about graduation and so many different people by myself. Watching the clouds, perfectly floating over the cornfields that go on forever. The clouds were majestic and comforting and beautiful. The way back was good too, we played word games and almost got lost and looked for a certain song, and FINALLY FOUND IT! and sang along a lot. shakira shakira.

There are so many unique relationships I have that I know I will never have again. They were amazing. I want to sleep outside in a sleeping bag and look at the stars and smell like grass and think about life. And I want whoever wants to with me to come join me.

This is the future, it has arrived. We should look forward and live life to the fullest, but don't forget to remember. It wasn't always good, but it was perfect.

Love, Noam Roth

P.S. Have fun in college I'm sure you'll succeed in whatever you choose to do Make sure to live life to the fullest It's been good. LYLAS.

P.P.S. I dunno about you, but I'm still fighting it. :)