...dear god...

my siblings use email like aim. its really annoying. like...two word emails, going back and forth for a long time. ughhhhh. They should just get aim. although a 6 year old on aim is scary, but i'm sure its been done.

COLLEGE apps. Actually, not being too nasty this weekend. I should be done by the due date with not TOO much stress, i think. w00t.

And then I'll be done!!! and will only have 7 left I think! like...3 of which are on common app, so that's awesome, cuz I've done that!

I didn't go to any Katrina event this weekend, lalala. I feel sort of bad. But not really. dude, I should create a goal of not going to any dances this year, except the ones I've already gone to. Cuz they're not usually exceedingly fun, and my mom doesn't really like that I go to them. However, she wants me to have a social life...hmm, that works well?

Yeah so! Halloween. good times. this year, I should be a boy for halloween. Because I've crossed the bridge from ladybugs to boys. or have I??? dun dun dun. I dunno, anyways, I'm not doing anything and I don't feel very um, childlike I guess.

P.S. for anyone who didn't get that reference, its from Sleepover, my favorite movie of all time. for those of you who thought I was dumb for liking the lizzie mcguire movie.....buahaha.

okay, time to finish this essay. Its about dance. I don't like it. its too long, but it doesn't say anything. byebye!

...uh...

:/....

computer is gonna die. old one that is. this is the new one.

and I can't backup all my stuff, which I neeeeeed to do. Cuz email is being weird. yahoo won't even work. confuzzled.

and its really quiet in this room cuz the old computer is off. I never knew it made so much noise. heh, hairdryer! and wall typing. and handwashing...etc.

Anyhoo. technology sucks! but rocks, at the same time.

Like driving, hate being in that state where you're both completely dependent and completely independent at the same time. one or the other please!

Really stressed out. so stressed out, I'm not using subjects, starting sentences with verbs! omg. but anyways, most stressed out I've been...in a while. possibly ever. not good. *cry*

uh yea.Posting is fun! This keyboard is weird. Its clicky but soft, sort of. hmm.

2 weeks. counting down. I can do this. maybe.

...hello...

hmmm.

I wish I could have a calm down party and invite everyone and somehow magically everyone would be in good moods forever. but this will not work.

Plan b. I wish I could go up to everyone that is having a bad day/week/life and hug them, and make them feel at least slightly better. But I can't just go up to random people, even if I know them, cuz that would be weird? I dunno.

Anyhoo, I am infuriated with the concept of stress. having had a mini emotional breakdown this weekend, I know how it feels, and its yucky. I would make a list of what is stressing people out, but I don't feel like it. (Ha?) plus I don't know what is making ever specific person angry/sad but I know a group of broad topics that pretty much everything is spreading from....hmm.

so yes. life is weird.

But I still love everyone I promise! yay.

I wish I could talk about certain things with certain people....This applies to like 7 people so don't worry, its not too specific or distressing.

"Who knows how long I’ve loved you.
You know I love you still.
Will I wait a lonely lifetime
If you want me to – I will.
Love you forever and forever.
Love you with all my heart.
Love you whenever we’re together.
Love you when we’re apart."

Rose and I are competing for that one...rawr *catfight* or threesome ;)

Peace out.

P.S. I feel like throwing up, I think I ran weird. its sort of annoying/gross. maybe I ate something before I ran or ...I dunno. blargle.

...images of broken light...

today i saw/touched my first cadaver. they smell like beef jerky.

i'm sorry, but its true.


and i got a perfect on my essay test! w0000t.

but i'm shaking. its really bad.

annnnd driving is really fun. I have driven like...6 times now I guess.

harumph. gibberish. blah.




I don't like this blog. at all. sick of it. blarghhhh. time to eat a really late lunch. bye.

...omd...

(oh mon dieu)

1. A la douane

M. Tardiff est a l'aeroport de Roissy-Charles de Gaulle. Il revient d'un voyage en Australie.

M. Tardiff: Bonjour! Enfin en France!
Le Douanier: Vos papiers, s'il vous plait!
M. Tardiff: Les voici. Je suis si fatigue! L'Australie est un pays sensationnel, mais c'est un tres long voyage.
Le Douanier: Avez-vous quelque chose a declarer? Cigaretts, alcool, fourrures, etc.?
M. Tardiff: Non! Quelques souvenirs seulement!
Le Douanier: Nous allons voir. Ouvrez vos valises!
M. Tardiff: Zut!

Note: finding this on the desk made me overflow with unexplicable joy, and I heart it. Additionally, in the picture, Le douanier looks very sinister, which suits his character. omd is right.

...moodswingarific...

yay. I got my license, dudez0rs. however, my dad won't let me drive. So I figure it evens out, or in any case I'm in the same position as I was before, except I won't have to ever wait for 4 hours in the dmv again. hopefully. ughhh.

and I have tons of stuff to do this weekend its really fun. right now I'm taking a break from SAT studying. and I have dance tonight, and SAT tomorrow, then I have a math test and english journals and philosophy stuffaroo and....i duuno. and my early app NEEDS to be done. or worked on severly. I am thinking that haloween is going to be VERY SCARY this year, indeed. and I'm sure I'll stay up horrendously late. this way though, I don't have to think of a costume. I can stay at home and eat candy and edit my essay. best thing ever.

humdedum. CERTAIN people need to email me. and I owe CERTAIN people a letter, oh well. on a very different note, christine had her baby. or should I say, christine's daughter had her baby, but it was really like it was christines cuz she's THAT possesive. so yea. all very good. I guess. HOWEVER. yesterday was the first time in my life that dance didn't really make me feel all that much better. and it always does. so that was bad and stuff.

and I'm having serious YOUR MOM withdrawal. *sigh*

...blergh...

I feel obligated to post.

bye.